begin again (again)

So why am I up at 4am?

So many things going through my head: Kyle's falling grades, Jack's possible water polo, Pa's continuing cough... and those are just the major ones (minor ones include continuing scandals at the school, er, institution in So.Central; Pauley reconstruction; Star Trek; Romeo and Juliet).

But let's hit the one that had me waking up at one.

Pa's cough has been going on so long, I can't even remember. I think I took him to the ER on Saturday, April 18 (I think that was the date, since I think it was only a week between ER visits, with Kyle's coming on April 25, after the UCLA spring football game). But before the ER visit, it had been a couple of weeks. Over the course of time (though mostly in April), he had three x-rays, was prescribed probably half a dozen cough syrups/expectorants/etc., and seen his doctors (or called them) maybe ten times. No one knows shit (of course, Kyle's substitute pediatrician said the same thing a week ago, prescribed Singular and began the HMO referral process for an Ear/Nose/Throat specialist... in the intervening days, the cough has gotten better/infrequent, though the spasms are still there).

Yesterday, Pa got a new prescription, these are pills. I hope they work.

He stopped going to the gym early in April because of the cough. The cough fatigues him pretty badly. It's gotten to the point where he's sleeping in him chair more than watching TV. And if that wasn't bad enough, it's not the usual sleep in reclining mode, it's sleep sitting up.

Like GG in the past year or so.

So yeah, that's running through my head.... but Kyle's grades are falling, too... back to B's and a C. After all the talk at the end of last semester of this semester being different... uh, not so much.

After getting that off my chest, maybe I can get some rest... probably not.